Rescue me

There are so many things I need to be rescued from...including myself.  Yes I can be my worse enemy especially when I am down and in a don't give a type of mood.  I laid in bed thinking what my life would be like if I had been born this way.  Then I snapped somewhat outta it and just realized that hey you can either wallow or change or be content.  Far too long have i been content but I need to figure out some way on how to change.  I am so tired of being alone.  I thought about adoption, foster care and surrogacy once again - but I know that would not be the wise choice.  I need to take back my financial life again I have mucked it over this past year.  Times like these I'm remind of the "Who does depression hurt?" commercial.